we leave for florida on saturday - so in 4 days. i am still waiting for the holter results from the cardiologist - im going to call tomorrow if i havent heard from him.
im starting to get really nervous. thursday is rah's 4 year "got day" - that will be four years since i brought him home.
im full of such anxiety that im making the wrong decision for him - that im going to take him there and this will be the last thing i do for him. so much of this is left over anxiety from what happened with bowie, i know. but i can't help it.
im full of such hope, but at the same time im full of so much fear that this will go horribly wrong. im full of these horrible terrible thoughts that im going to say goodbye to my dog next tuesday morning and that it will be the last time i see him. and that thought makes me want to email the vet school and just tell them to cancel the entire procedure.
but what other choice do i have?
You're not doing the wrong thing because YOU are doing the BEST that YOU can do for him.
ReplyDeleteThats all he would ever ask for.